Random Thoughts

It’s perplexing how presumptuous one can get. It’s also maddening to see one act on their assumptions unabashedly, without thinking that what comes out of their mouth will no doubt end up as their own judgment of themselves.

They centre their life on thrashing and feeding off others in a proclaimed self-righteous manner. Does this make one feel good about oneself? Do people derive a certain sense of pleasure by doing so?

I’ve always believed that humans are born evil, that morality is learnt as we grow. Right and wrong only becomes obvious when we become victims or find ourselves stuck in a disadvantageous situation, and being subjected to ridicule and humiliation. We only learn through what we have been taught and personal experiences. To grow up around egotistical people will somehow influence how we portray others to be. The whole notion of judgment may perhaps lie underneath each person’s subconscious desire of being the fittest, the smartest and the most beautiful of them all. So why not just give your ego a big boost in the expense of others?

When all that has died down, how worthy do you think you are? Bear in mind that eventually everything ceases into oblivion, that you too, will disappear and what is left will only be fragments of memories - you have barely existed. You can never know if a person forgives you when you have wronged them. It becomes existentially important for you and will be a question that you will be immensely concerned with. Neither can you know whether a person loves you. It’s just something you have to believe or hope. And these are more important to you than knowing that the sum of the angles in a triangle adds up to 180 degrees.

According to Kierkegaard, there are three stages on life’s way (I don’t know to where but I’m still seeking). First stage, being the aesthetic stage, where one lives for the moment and grasps every opportunity of enjoyment. Such people differentiate something as either boring or fun. Good is whatever that is pleasurable. However, people living at this stage can easily experience angst. Angst is a good thing, as it may lead one to experience the second stage – the ethical stage, where one’s life is characterized by seriousness and responsibility. However, even the most dedicated person will feel trapped in this moral sense of duty and meticulosity. Thus starts the journey to the final stage – the religious stage, or for those who are non-religious, the existentialism stage – the meaning in existence and seeking value as an individual.

Unfortunately, plenty are still at the aesthetics stage and many remain there without journeying through the different stages. It may not be a bad thing, because living life to the fullest may just be their personal philosophy. However, life will pretty much be empty without a reflective attitude. Hence, some people often remain trapped and ultimately condemned to their own “freedom”.

Crush them like ants and stab their empty heart. Some people deserve no empathy. These beautiful and boring bores, I’m appalled by their lack of sensibility and intelligence. Those bunch of pretentious ass-kissers. Bah!

Which reminds me, just a disclaimer here: although we’re all guilty to superficial (and sometimes shallow) acts, WE however, understand the complex meaning of having to live in this world, and to what purpose, I’m still trying to find out. Hmm.

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Most recent picture I've been looking at over and over again:

Bunny and her baby. Oops, no. Her colleague's baby. Sweetness.