CE says...

I'm really enjoying tonight...

Doing my work, listening to Goldfrapp (why is it always Goldfrapp at night?), listening to the crickets and the sound of stillness.

I can even hear a tap dripping in the background and my own heart beating.

I made a snack and continued to do my work while surfing the Net at the same time. Not very productive but at least I managed to complete some stuff.

Oh and I just saw a lizard scurry around before it went to hide behind the clock on the wall. Hello, you!

CE's right. I need to remember to be happy. So I shouldn't care too much about everything and pursue whatever makes me happy...whatever makes me feel alive. She said I'm too practical, too rigid. Sometimes I think so too but it's the best way to protect oneself, well, that's what I thought.

CE's a real encouragement - telling me to go forth with whatever I want to do and to stop being too level-headed; that my happiness comes first and she'll come whack whoever bullies me (but she never does).

She reckons I spoil my partners (judging from experience, she says), that I sincerely care for someone with all my heart when I want to make things work. Yes, I know that for a fact so now I'm gonna be sitting on my ass and be pampered for once.

But CE said I'm rigid (thank goodness not frigid)! I wanna slap her now. Hahaha! Gosh, I wish she'd just appear in front of me now so that I can buy her coffee....and THEN give her a tight hug smack on the head.