Three strikes and you're out

Tonight....

I found myself tearing.
I doubted myself.
I felt like I was the only one who was bothered.
I realised I was the one doing the pulling.
I felt desperately lonely.
I realised I was the one trying harder.
I lost confidence in myself.
I realised my trust was spiraling downwards.
I knew that there was nothing you can do coz it's all up to me now.

And tonight, I have no one else to blame...

Oh god how I hate repercussions....if only I could revert, revert, revert back to my nonchalant self.

But I can't, so I told myself:

Three strikes and you're out.

Three strikes and you're out.

Three strikes....

and you're out.

Tonight, I wished I could sleep and never wake up.