Socially awkward

According to the Urban Dictionary, socially awkward means:


...an individual excessively afraid of social interaction due to some form of peer rejection or personal choice. Presenting a form or different forms of uncomfortability when around others.


I'm beginning to suspect...really suspect....that ALL of my family members are socially awkward. Including me. We're just not sociable and we don't really like being in the limelight or in public. We're also seemingly uncomfortable in front of people we're not close to and sometimes even with people we ARE close to.


I don't know if it's just our genetic make-up, but truth is, I've become more and more anti-social over the past five years. People...LOTS of people have come and gone, but they never stay for long. And it's not because of tiffs or arguments. Some leave because they've not managed to obtain their goal (me), while others leave because...I suppose they never intended to stay. Some I don't bother to entertain and some are just too demanding. Most of the time, I just feel tired. Because maybe I just need someone whom I feel comfortable with to sit with me in silence. 


So at the end of it all, it's just me and a handful of friends. But it's ok. :) It's peaceful this way, just a bit boring at times. It also allows me to see who's truly sticking around and who's just trying to leave an impression.