Purge

As usual, a chapter closes and another one opens. But unlike the past, this time I'm not afraid of taking one step further into the unknown.


Moving on is less scary this time. Maybe the faith I failed to have previously and was told umpteenth times to have it has finally been transferred to me through the form of finalisation. And due to that, it exudes an energy that welcomes positive attraction. 


I think now that I'm in the process of healing, I'm also preparing to love again and this time, it'll be bigger and better (I don't know why I still have so much love to give. I should use it for better causes, I reckon).


Maybe spending some time alone in Bali might work. I used to like to wander around when I was feeling sad and in need of some companion. Now, I'm - may I stress - happily wandering off to sort my mind, compartmentalise it a bit and let go of ghosts and shadows that I've lived with for such a long time. Spend three days absolutely alone, wandering aimlessly, lying by the beach and do nothing. Probably start to meditate too. I think I'll be pretty happy.


They say every relationship, every person you meet in life teaches you something. This time I've learnt I can be happy on my own. This time I've learnt how it's like to put 101 per cent of my heart. And I'm going to do it again. 


Time to purge my darkness out, time to purge my cynicism and negativity, time to purge everything out of my system, and most importantly, time to purge her out forever. 


Once that's done, I'll be ready and this time, I WILL be cherished. Nothing has been this crystal clear for a long time. :)


I'll keep walking, never turning back and perhaps someone worthy will come along. And to those who have been next to me every step of the way, you have my eternal gratitude. 


Wait for me.