Just walk

"I am a slow walker but I never walk backwards."

-- Abraham Lincoln

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When 10 out of 10 people say the same thing, it's probably accurate.

When 20 out of 20 people offer their support, hugs, advice and time, it probably shows I'm loved.

What's losing one person when I have a truckload of love?

Tiffy's (yes, oh wise one) blog post hit me real hard:

I've been taught right from the beginning, that we can't control our feelings. True, we can't help the way we feel.

But we were all given willpower for a reason.

A whole string of processes take place up there before an action is taken. And somewhere along those processes, there will definitely be a point where controlling is possible.

I still firmly believe it's all up in the head. It's always been.

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Her post has taught me something - that I've outgrown my old self, that I possess an amount of willpower I never thought I had. And yes, I agree with you, Tiffy, that it's all in the mind.

I know I'm cut out for far greater things than the shit I faced. I'll look back at it some day and probably laugh at myself for being so silly. But at least I was brave. At least I wore my heart on my sleeve and took a risk without feeling I had to break someone before I was broken. It was always my tendency to do so because I was a coward - I was so afraid of getting hurt, I'd hurt the other party first. I wanted it all and I never wanted to be proven as the bad guy, I never wanted to get caught.

This time round, I dived without a safety net and emerged alive, unscathed, with maybe a few abrasions but stronger than before. Nothing...no one...not even you, can take me down.

The world is mine....and it's a pity you're not part of it coz you don't know what you're missing...