Ditto

You reminisce on times spent together while you flip through old albums. You lament about love lost and how you're heart has not settled over time.

You probably miss the moments where you had nothing to worry about, you felt happy, secure, safe. You look at how close and tight knit you guys were, how outings with friends were joyous occasions with no suspicions, no politics. You share the same friends - birthdays, anniversaries, surprises, countless dinners and catching up sessions.

You looked back at your holidays together, your future plans, how your world was moulded into one...and then you look at the present and saw a stark contrast; you feel empty, unsatisfied and hoping you'd finally forget the damage, the requited love, the unconditional promises that were never fulfilled.

You look at the present and wished you lived in that one world where you did not have to code switch back and forth, where you felt safe and comfortable enough to communicate your woes and troubles, that you did not have to hide your emotions and relate your true thoughts, your real feelings, your perception of the ongoing events.

But hasn't it dawned upon you that this is exactly how I feel too?

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My world crashed down countless times this year...I don't know if I have the heart and strength to grit my teeth and hold it up again.

Why don't you do it for me? Make my happiness last, will you? Coz if you can't, I'll have to do it myself..on my own.