Fuck you very much.

I finally found what I was looking for.

Evidence. Dated merely two weeks ago.

Like I said, I will never slander someone without concrete proof. And now that I found it, my heart crumbled, rendering my entire body lifeless, limp, broken. Like I said, my world crashed down many times this year and this time, it's like armageddon all over again.

Time after time, I chose to believe. Time after time, I gave you the benefit of the doubt. Few months down the road, I really believed...but only for awhile until evidence kept piling up. And till tonight, I found what I was looking for.

Your confession, her confession, your confession to your friends (oh how you gloat about it). Congratulations. You've won. You're the ultimate player and I'm the fool for once. Let me wipe my tears first before I hand you your freaking trophy. Oh no, wait. She's got a 'present' at your place right? Ha. That's your trophy.

Have I not been good enough? No I don't think so. In fact, many people would envy the position you're in.

Am I not pretty enough? Yes, I may not be. But there will always be pretty people around and you can't have them all no matter how good looking you think you are. Coz you know what, you'll age like me, you'll fall out of love like me, you'll get hurt like me and you will NEVER find love (unlike me). Yes I'm cursing you.

Have I not been sincere enough? I have. Always have. In fact, I went OUT OF MY WAY to help you, to support you, to make sure you were doing fine. I struggled night and day with your assignments, lost sleep, shed countless tears for the fucking big disappointment that you are.

And all I wanted was to ensure our relationship would be a happy and stable one, with a strong foundation. I was so cautious of stepping into it initially and when I did, I gave it my all, without holding back.

How naive.

What about you? What have you done besides cooking up stories and lying through your teeth a zillion times, through and through..over and over again? What have YOU done to show that "you love me always", "you mean so much to me", "I have nothing to hide"...la di da di da....I wanna laugh. I really do.

You know what's REALLY hilarious? Is that she wants to meet me to explain things? Hello?? Why would I wanna meet you. Seriously. Funny thing is she wants to tell me the whole story. Should I thank her for having the courage to own up? Possibly coz unlike you, she's got more balls. She really wants to meet. She's telling me "if you really love her then let me have a chance to explain".

So now she's acting all noble - saying things like "this will be the first and last time we'll meet.. just want a nice end to me and her, if you really love and care for her and don't want to lose people who love you so much still, then please give me a chance can?"

Seriously, WHAT NICE END? Best of both worlds right? If I was vindictive enough, I could easily find out who her gf is and give her a hell of a good time, like what I'm going through. But no. Albeit occasionally a tad bitchy, I'm not a bitch.

What about MY nice ending? Seriously, can someone get the BITCH OFF MY BACK?

Oh wait...TWO bitches.

Get them off of me. Please. I need my life back. I need my happiness back. This half of the year has been a total waste of time.

Maybe I deserved it... for being utterly stupid, tolerant and way too soft-hearted. Maybe I deserved this ending for being fucking naive.

Maybe I deserved it for falling in love with the wrong person. It is truly and utterly pointless.

Fuck you very much.